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[Dec. 30th, 2006|08:27 pm] |
So I am going to delete this account soon.
It really seems like too much trouble but I need a good restart on things and life and I find it logical to renew everything to start off another upcoming year.
In saying that I will have a new LJ and AIM user name within the upcoming week.
I'm going to leave all the bad past experiences and feelings behind and have a little more perk and realize for myself that I can go on with new things and reach out for more hard earning goals.
I am going to become a comment whore and I will need comments to keep me up and motivated so I will do likewise to everyone else because I know how you get a small spark from someone acknowledging even a simple small post.
Also in response to one previous comment: I know I brushed past a friendship and let it fade but I will force myself to stop being a hard ass procrastinator an attempt to at least give a 'hey' once in a while and maybe more.
It's really all these small things that have been bringing me down and not looking at things in a way that I could change it around and do something about a situation myself.
Gambatte! Or something.
Yeah. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2006|03:01 pm] |
I guess Thanksgiving wasn't too bad...? The kids weren't as bad as I thought they'd be. Grey's Anatomy was the shit as usual. <3
I mentioned I worked the day after. Getting up at 5am isn't my best preference but it wasn't so bad. Work went by pretty fast actually. I had an hour long break and so I took to looking around. I went up to the bubble tea stand to say hello to Janet but some older woman got in my way and was all 'canItakeyoorfah?!' and Janet looked over and I said I just wanted to see her and we gave a brief wave because suddenly they got busy so I just went back and worked.
I also got the black kitten. The girl said he was 3 months but he def does not look it. And he's sick too. Meh, but I'd rather him be sick in my care than the other girl's because I don't think they all got equal attention. He's gettinga bit better now. Still has the sniffles and runny nose. I can't let him out of my sight or he'll go mad. He's not potty trained either...And he likes to sit on my shoulder and sleep - so I'm always watching tele in this awkward position.
I named him Ruki (Vo.Gazette)
Trying to sort through how I'm going to manage Christmas this year...
I don't why I keep saying it but I really don't have a best friend anymore. I think I've been in denial about it. He doesn't act like he cares anymore. So anyone close enough to me right now is my girlfriend and sister. ...It's weird to not have a best friend...?
Missed Colleen's wedding. I was on call. So they needed me. Ugh. I plan to have us go out to dinner this weekend. But then again who knows...today is the only day I have off.
Argh.
The computer is dead at home. So. Little updates. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2006|02:49 pm] |
Happy Thanksgiving~!
No more mexican food for Char - Imma be having some hardcore organic Thanksgiving at my aunt's. I'm stuffing junk in my bag so I don't starve. Ugh. And my head will be screaming when we get out of the house to leave - I can't stand those kids. Fucking rambunctious as hell. I think I'll be taking over the PS2 and my Zen with my sister. But until she gets there wth do I do?
I made pancakes this morning (banana with vanilla) so yum (stfu Aki they are so good Imma make you try one~!). And then I fell back to sleep and didn't get up until 2-ish. I think I'm trying to get in as much sleep as possible since I'm up at 5 for the morning rush at Pac.
And then after I get off I get my kitten~! Lol That's my Black Friday shopping. <333 I might name him Ruki. But I need to watch him for a while first to get to know his personality.
So the list of what I am thankful for:
1) Odd ass friends who keep me going
2) My bestest friend Shinji - who always knows what's best and will be there no matter what.
3) My family as much as I dislike them sometimes
4) Kitties (RIP Kozi. TT..)
5) My mother helping me get started with college.
6) Beauty Spot - for all the cheap ass/good quality make up they give me.
7) And my wonderful Raquel - I love her like a bish - tho I'm still mad at the fact her boobs will always be bigger than mine TT (Iloveyou<333) |
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[Nov. 14th, 2006|05:41 pm] |
So. Wtf. Does 'fat' want to bite me in the ass today?
As soon as I posted the previous entry I turn the television on to find myself watching a Dr.Keith show about insane obese woman who loves being obese and are even trying to weigh more! Like a 330 lbs woman has a goal of reaching 400 lbs?! I almost wanted to puke watching the show and after a point threw away what I was eating.
I am so sick beyong belief of this shit.
Skinny girls.
Obese girls.
W...t...f
And people are all like 'guys are coming out of the fat closet'!!
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Yeah?
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[Oct. 27th, 2006|10:45 am] |
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| | Olivia - Space Halo | ] |
Bluh. Double shift today....
We better get out at exactly 9 or Imma go and kill the customers.
Which means Ishmeal and Ronnie better get their butts in good order. D<
This is Rack's night. <3
On another note: GODDAMN! D: Olivia Lufkin is playing at...at...I can't even speak the con name. But I'm upset. I feel like I'm the only person who knows who she is.
SIGH.
Oh well.
Perks up for tomorrow. :D |
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[Oct. 7th, 2006|01:43 am] |
I had an odd out of the blue call today from Dee.
She is in Indiana now.
Happy Birthday Billy (I can't belive you hung up on me. D: Therefore that gives me more right to call you old now. Senile too. Lol)
:D I'm happy my Keki-kun can come to Katsucon.
Gawd I hope I have enough money. D:
And supposedly I might be going to a sex store tomorrow...?
Homg Hoe Boy.
I bet I'll just run straight back out from all the fake penii or real. Whichever D: |
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[Sep. 14th, 2006|10:01 pm] |
Saturday ~~~~~
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Don't make it lonerly.
Boohoo.
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Survivor: New season is a bit interesting with the whole division of ethic groups but at the same time you know each group is going to end up yelling racism at another. I already hate that vietnamese guy. I hate people who think that just because they have an expertise in something they can run over just about anything and everything.
And that's why I don't really care for Survivor anymore.
It's all about egoism rather than surviving.
Where's the love people!??! ._. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2006|04:06 pm] |
It's INSANELY rainy out.
And the car windows fogged up. I only think one thing when that happens. :d
Not too busy. And that dumbass girl wasn't there today so I was free to be myself and do all the work with a smile plastered on the whole day and chitchat with Sal a lot. I broke plastic. Whoops.
And fuck -- I took that in a whole new term. Geez! :x
Made an appointment with the owner of the Hair Gallery beside us. I called her crazy lady because all I remember is her running past waving and I'm like....wth...who is that!? And she came in and said she worked next to us. But now I know her name. It's mainly a black people hair place I guess....but if one person knows how to do hair...it's a black person. Seriously.
It smells good in there.....and nice little hip hop music.....r&b....I don't know the difference....and I'm going to shut up now before I sound more stupid.... |
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[Sep. 13th, 2006|09:28 pm] |
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I have been on a pop music streak today and I crave to just be silly.
So. Chinese take out at Eastern. I have moved on from from my Dynasty admiree to a new. It sounded like an old man when I called in. He asked for my name and I gave it. And when I came in there was certainly not an old man there but a nice young guy who asked me if I was the mild general tso and I nodded. And the whole time I was thinking to just call me for take out and let me ask your name! :D Jk. I lack on the interest in many people nowadys.
Nibbled on my wonderfully made chinese and watched Silent Hill. New in stock for the amounts of videos at the library. Beginning: Blah. Middle/Near End: Pretty good. End: Blah. This was a video game? Bah. Get a better plot. I did love the graphics and morbid ideals of it though.
So....Saturday is free now...HintHint. |
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[Sep. 13th, 2006|12:34 pm] |
SIGH. Boredboredbored.
I think Wensdays are my be funk and punk/grab chinese food and rent a movie day. :I |
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[Sep. 13th, 2006|09:58 am] |
Yah. So.
I got to witness half a Korean wedding on Gilmore Girls last night. Lol. The grandmother came all the way from Korea and when she found out Ling was marrying a whitie and that Ling's mother was not Buddhist anymore she threw a fit, left, and then they all suddenly rushed to the church for a Christian wedding. oo;! Interesting...Ling was very pretty though in her little hangbok (is that how it's spelled...forgot) dress...
Do Korean families really just grab a plate of food, put money or a gift in a bag and just leave right after....?
2 more days until I see Sid! :D Yay!
3 more days until I see Diru and Flyleaf(hopefully)! :D Yay! |
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[Sep. 12th, 2006|09:31 am] |
Har. I ate Irish oatmeal with real honey.
Ar. Top o' the morning to yeh lads. (I know I'll be shot for saying that later)
I had a few little dreams and couldn't sleep very well last night. I stayed up till 2am playing KH2. After that tossed and turned. Several dreams of taking showers...And preparing for World War II. Or something like getting ready for some ice age-ish catastrophe and started stocking huge ass nets of crabs in the north pole waters for food later...
Hm.Well.Yeah.Wonder what my paycheck will look like this week.
Seriously thinking on getting a second job at the end of October and working for a month or two to catch up on needed money. Hm. Just part time. 4hrs in the evening - 4 days a week. Whatever. That and I need to get out of this house. I don't ever admit how glad I am when I get to go see a friend and can spend a day not locked up in my room because I'm tired of hearing all the damn favoritism and whining and weird noises made everytime I walk by. And now I find my grandparents nosy as well - I can take my own trash out. They don't need to snoop through my room to find trash. Geez. They want to do everything for me but the reality is I am capable of doing it myself. Sigh. Maybe they'll wash me when I take a bath too.
And the plans look good to me for the concert. As long as I have directions on geting to Ellicot City from Pentagon City. :I |
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[Sep. 11th, 2006|07:47 pm] |
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| | Mozart:Duetto "Cinque..dieci..venti..trenta" Figaro, Susanna | ] |
I took the longest nap ever. :I
I guess that means I'll be up all night playing KH2.
Apparently my cat caught a blue bird and started this crazy cry when my grandfather took the bird away. :d
AN: I thought Mozart did Figaro in Italian!? ....Wait...Damn the Latin language. Pft. French - Spanish - Italin -- After learning two of the languages and just glancing breifly at the other - there's only a scratch of a difference between it all! Italian is very close to Spanish though. Very. I've been very tempted to learn it now though because there's these group of young business people that come into Quiznos almost everyday and they're Italian. I sometimes have small talk with the girl. She was surprised when I asked her if that was what they were speaking and wanted to know if I knew the language. Poo. I wish. I could just tell not only in language but in appearances. The men (whoo and what men lol jk :p) look very Italian and Greek-ish.
I want to go back to French. :D
La vouche dormant en ma livre! D:!!
ET!
J'ai (I am....? I forgot the conjugations for that one) rouge entre les jambe....
Ah okay that was just dirty! Sorry. :X But I am! Watch out for attitude changes for the next few days. :P |
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[Sep. 11th, 2006|04:12 pm] |
I just whored the whole classical cd section in the library. I snagged Shubert as soon as I saw his name. I liked playing his music in Orchestra.
Hm. And I found a 'Lives of the Saints' book. It looked interesting and educational. :D Let me see who my saint is...
St. Hilary
...Clinton's wife? Is that possible? :I Jkjk.
Work today was awful. I don't know. Bcause I didn't feel good I screwed up or did half ass on most everything. I mean I did start that but I felt really nauseated and faint/ like my face just drained of color and sometimes I almost lost balanced. While washing dishes in the back I suddenly had to latch onto the shelf above because I almost gave out. I think Sal finally noticed (I'm too good to say when I'm not feeling well) and let me break first out of all of them. That didn't even help. I just wanted to uneat what I just had. Bad stomach aches. Later Sal said I looked tired or not too good and I told him - but I was only half an hour away from getting off so I just stayed.
I still feel nauseated but I think I'm just going to go lie down or something.
Bah.
I need to tinkle first though. kthnx. :I |
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[Sep. 11th, 2006|10:05 am] |
It would be best to save money.
So. I'll get my hair style/trimmed/whatever on friday. And then just buy the hair dye/bleach myself and do it. I guess. The only problem I ever had with dying my hair was the fact that I am freckled. Some blonde's have freckles right? I mean I had blondish hair before....Goddamn. I want the strawberrish/orangish blonde...? I don't know what I'm talking about. :x Shut up. I def want that cut in chunky layers style. Yer.
( Mix n' Match it. )
Dude. They totally changed photobucket around. oO; |
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[Sep. 10th, 2006|09:05 pm] |
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| | The Great Alexander - Bond | ] |
Fuck. Like. I haven't listened to classical music in weeks. I did not want to turn my car off when I got home from work it was that good. I really want a new violin now. I'm kicking myself in the ass forever for breaking my original. But maybe it was meant to go ahead on and get yourself another because the one you had was a rip off and played like shit anyways. Kthnx. :I
I LOVE YOU MOZART! :D
Oh goddamn. The urge to play Fugue in G Minor --- It kills. It kills. D:
I just want to play up and down those scales like crazy --- Sniff.
Dear little sister could you burn me those Bond cd's?
I'd appreciate it. :D
And you have my 12 Girls Orchestra Cd!
I'd like that back too. D:
I want one of those Xongaiufhaieea. Whatever it has 1 string or something.
You can't find it anywhere online. D:
Time to take a trip to China. :I |
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[Sep. 10th, 2006|10:32 am] |
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| | The Fray - How To Save A Life | ] |
So I woke up and just lie in bed until the sun blinded me and trudged downstairs - randomly grabbed a sales ad:
Grey's Anatomy Season 1 Disc Set 18.99 at Target.
There are tears in my eyes. Sigh.
I really need to go kung fu on this page and smack it into shape.
But I feel much clearer and better about life in general right now. :)
Reason could be the birds chirping outside my window.... :x
It is a nice day.
I hope that inspector came in so it'll just be me and Carl to close tonight. Meh. At least I don't have to deal with that midget today. D: |
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[Sep. 9th, 2006|10:51 pm] |
Ha. Fun. Lots.
For a first to hang with just the males species.
You really could bag that boy up into a Ruby Tuesday's bag and take him home with you. Sadly, there was only room for my leftover dinner.
Kidding.
Part. Because I did really take home my leftover dinner.
Bah.
And driving to VA was easy!
Lick that up your nose. :d |
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[Sep. 7th, 2006|09:22 am] |
After much thought and conversation I believe parading around upset and angry will not do. I do not need or want to be unhappy. Obviously it was not suppose to stay in such ways.
I have better subjects to occupy my time with rather than cry over something that is a lost case. I do still 'supposedly' have other friends but I am not into a lot of social gatherings. I feel rather content in a quiet house with my kitten and a bunch of books to read and silly television shows at my becking call and a few video games -- when not at work.
I told him I wasn't going to prove to him that I could study hard and a be a nurse. I was going to do it and prove it to myself. A little piece of me knew that I wanted to prove it to him but now that he is no more - I know I can still do it without his encouragements or non-encouragements.
I do know my mind will wander about other ways I want to make out with life. For now - right now - I feel pretty settled on my decision.
And I really need to make myself an icon or two. |
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